I’ve been M.I.A. for a while as, I too, have been digesting this weird alternate reality we’re all living in. It’s so strange to be living during a world pandemic and trying to understand what that means. And I’ve meaning to jump on here and share some things with you but didn’t know really what to say.
Definitely didn’t want to be another person sharing false information. No matter how much I read or watched, I will never have all the facts the officials have. So, I figured I’d do my part and stay indoors and hope 30 days comes and goes pretty quickly. I had plans for 2020 and it’s not off to a great start.
I wanted to check in with you as well and see how you’re holding up. I know not everyone relishes the idea of staying home all day long. Not everyone’s home life is pleasant for them to want to stay home so this can be a very stressful time for some. And staying home for a lot of people means lossing out on money.
Now, I’m very fortunate to still have full time employment that also allows me to work from home. I would hate to be commuting back and forth and further expose my health. And in the light of everything, it does seem that having a job right now is better than being a freelancer or an independent contractor. But not really. Many — like thousands – of people have been laid off because their companies were not essential and had to shut down. So even having a job doesn’t protect you from a global event such as the one we’re experiencing.
Being a hustler and a freelancer gives us a chance to be more creative now than ever. We have to look at this horrible situation and think what good can come from it and what good can we do. Definitely think about what good you can do. Too many people already out there price gouging and hording that we don’t need to add to the problem.
So… in this time of uncertainty, I hope we can all lean on one another for support but also look within ourselves and see how we can rise to the occasion. And if you want to talk, let’s talk.
I will be the first to admit I am awful at taking inventory of all that I do have versus what I don’t have and what I want to have. And it’s easy to do that, to focus on what’s missing or what I need or what I need to save up for. As if my life is truly missing something but it isn’t, at least not missing anything material. Yes, there are things that could be better or in better condition, but I am certainly not without.
I am not without shelter and as the the rents and mortgages keep rising, I should be extremely thankful for that. I am not with a paying job that affords me the opportunities to create side hustles and passion projects. I am not without food. That is a necessity I am happy is covered. My hips don’t lie. I am not without loved ones, who support and encourage my endeavors and aspirations. I am not with goals and dreams. The very elements that make me want to work hard for something more.
I could go on – electricity, in-door plumbing, savings account, public transportation, a car, a phone, a working TV, Netflix – but my point is simple. There’s is nothing wrong with wanting to more for yourself, whatever your “more” maybe. But never forget all that you already have. It definitely puts things into perspective and helps you make wiser and more confident choices. As a hustling lady, we’re always about making wiser and smarter choices for ourselves.
I speak a lot about the importance of earning extra monies and saving and investing, if you can, but sometimes I forget to slow down and be thankful for the dollars and cents that I have. Elle reminded me this past Sunday to find the positive in everything. I was talking to her over the phone while I was at Ross and the Dollar Tree and I was mentally calculating what I spent that day. I said to her that I had spent over a $100 I was not planning to (this is why we have budgets, right?) and she said to me without missing a best, ‘be thankful you had the money to spend’.
Deep, trust me.
Oftentimes, I’ll beat myself up for spending too much money that I won’t spend anything for weeks afterwards, thinking it’ll balance me out. And althouh, like everyone else, I am constantly working on being better with my finances and managing my money, I forget to be thankful for the money I do have.
I’ve operated far too long from a place of lack and need and hustle and grind that I don’t stop and just be… thankful. Gracious. In a state of gratitude. Shame on me. Really.
Yes, I think it’s absolutely important to be focused and geared towards something that offers value to our lives. But it’s also important to be present in the moment. And in those moments, be thankful. For all that we have. No matter how muc it adds up to.
I am thankful for my dreams, my ambitions, my mom, Elle, my job, other loved ones in my life, Los Angeles for offering me a wealth of opportunities. And the dollars and cents in my pocketbook.
Oh, man. I look forward to each and every Friday from the last Friday. And that’s the gospel truth.
This particular week has been relatively frustrating for me as I am feeling a bit “stuck”. I’ve had a number of interviews over the phone and in person, but no call backs for a second interview or a job offer and I’m… frustrated. I really hate the place I work at. It is soul draining. And I’m trying to get out of here and keep my head straight while pursuing other avenues that allow me to earn and be creative. But it’s not enough. I spend 40 hours here and ever hour feels like I’ve shorten my life by a day. It feels that bad.
But somehow I manage to fall out of bed, get dressed and come to work. Wanting, every day, to call out. Wanting a windfall of money to come my way so I can quit on the spot. Wanting anything but to be at this place.
So this morning I wake up to a text from one of my dearest and nearest, Elle, who sends me this beautiful message of how thankful she is for me helping her with an idea that she’s launching called J.U.N.K. Food. It’s about helping people who are interested in incorporating more plant based food into their diets to promote a healthier lifestyle. She sent me this long beautiful text about how all the women at her gym loved the idea and they can’t wait for it to fully form and follow the development of its concept.
And that made me feel good. Real good. Through my own troubles, I can be of service and benefit to someone else. I have strength even when it feels like I don’t.
So, I hope that all my hustlers out there who are also finding their own strength even when shit is not going according to plan. Keep hustling.